My Crazy Thoughts: 03/01/2003

There is a show that I have now caught two days in a row, I don't mean to look for it, it's just on when nothing else is. Anyway, it's "American Chopper" and it's the Discovery Channel's answer to reality shows; it's all about Orange County Choppers(choppers=funny looking motorcycles). When I watch it, all I want to do is learn how to make funny looking motorcycles.

Okay, I live in Florida, it is practically April, and tonight it could freeze. This is not supposed to happen. This is Florida! I shouldn't have to worry about the corn we just planted (which I am very excited about). It's supposed to be hot, a couple weeks ago it WAS hot. What happened? I think it's a conspiracy.

So today in my developmental class we talked about moral reasoning and development in young children. So anyway, this is a question posed to young children to determine what stage of moral reasoning they are in.

Who is naughtier?

Johnny's mom calls him to dinner. There is a chair next to the kitchen door with 15 glasses on it, Johnny doesn't know it is there so when he opens the door the chair turns over and all of the glasses break.

When Paul's mom is not home he climbs up on the counter and reaches into the top cabinet for the jelly. When he does this he tips over one glass and it breaks

So, who is naughtier? Older children answer Paul, because they know that Johnny didn't know about the chair and the glasses and he therefore didn't mean to knock over the glasses. Younger children choose Johnny because they supposedly don't look at intentions they look at the final outcome. And in the end Johnny broke more glasses.

That's all fine and dandy but my question is, why was Paul left at home alone, he's not even tall enough to reach the top cupboard without climbing on the counter? I think that the answer is Paul's mom. What do you think?

(The names have been changed because I can't remember them from class. And the wording makes me think it's an old example anyway. Naughtier.)

Today John cleaned out his office and he brought a bunch of stuff over to put in our garage sale. Including a bunch of old records, which I immediately helped my self to. I got a lot of pretty good ones, a couple Willie Nelson's, a couple of Alabama, one by the Mamas and the Papas, and one of the Supremes, and others too. The only problem is they were mildewing from being in that flood...that was 10 years ago. So anyway, i was a little dissapointed at first because I thought that they were all ruined, but mom said that I could probably just wash them gently with a clean cloth and some soapy water. I figured it couldn't hurt and it worked. I just genly washed them and all the mildew spots came off, now the only dissapointment is that there are scratches on the Mamas and the Papas. Anyway, I'm excited, it's going to take me a while though to clean them all 'cause I only have to much room to put them while they dry.
My mom and I also planted corn, pole beans, marigolds and xenias. It was hard work cleaning out that flower bed, and we had to take out a lot of dirt. Anyway, I'm excited about the corn, now I'm growing corn and wheat, a regular farmer.

What does one do when they have an idea for a revolutionary pharmaceutical invention? It's an idea, so I don't think I can copyright it. And it hasn't been developed (yet), so I don't think I can patent it. So how do I protect my intellectual property?

You know you are in a bad way when the sound of the dryer running reminds you of "Marche Slave" and you can't concentrate because you can't stop singing along...with the dryer.

My Sister
So when I left last week to come back to school my mom and my sister were going up to Home Depot to buy shelves to put up in Nikky's room. And then when I called later on to tell mom I made it okay, she told me that they got the shelves and were getting ready to put them up. So I looked today at her aim profile, it's says "remodeling the house...wish me luck cuz I don't know what I'm doing!!!" So now I'm afraid to go home and see what has happened, I mean, since when does putting up some shelves constitute remodeling the house?

TO DO:

1) ~~work~~
2) ~~Thesis~~
3) ~~Send Thesis to director~~
~~*Please amend list to include lunch*~~
4) Write last week's Post lab
5) ~~Write this week's Pre-lab~~
6) Wash Clothes
7) ~~Eat dinner~~
8) Sleep

So, guess who had to climb into their car from the passenger seat this morning?

News Flash
Watched the news tonight. People are pretty sure they saw that terrorist guy at a Subway here in Tampa. And Guess where the president is going to be tomorrow. You guessed it, right here in good old Tampa. Boy am I excited to be here. I cannot wait until I graduate, then I can get away from this "terrorist" school.
I am not a happy camper. For the rest of my life, when people find out where I went to undergrad they will all nod, and say "ahhhh, that terrorist school."
And the guy is like 27, and he is some high level terrorist, I mean talk about the fast track. I wish I could move as quickly up the ranks as this guy. Of course, I don't think I would be a very good terrorist. But I could go for a fortune 500 company.

Contacts
I got the colored contacts from my eye doctor this weekend and I have worn them all day today, no one said anything but I really didn't have very much human interaction today. I think I will wear them tomorrow, I should see lot of people who know me tomorrow. Anyway, at first they really bothered me because of the shadows, but now I'm completely used to it and I don't notice it at all unless I think about it. The color of these is definitely better than the other ones I tried on, but it still doesn't pop as much as I want it too. Also, the center of the contact is very big (so that I can see), but it makes me look like my eyes are always dilated. And I think the color makes me look evil. We'll see what people say tomorrow, if I wear them

Digital Camera
I really want a digital camera. If I had one I would take a picture so you could see the eye color.

I wish people at my apartment complex would learn to park correctly. I mean, the spaces are small but they aren't that small and there is no reason they can't park in the MIDDLE of the space, you know without the ANY of the wheels of the line so people can park in the space next to you safely.

Telemarketer
Me: hello
Silence
Me: hello
Silence
Me: Hello
Telemarketer: Hello, I'm blah blah blah from the New York Post. Are you at least 18 years of age?
Me: Yes I am, but I'm not interested.
Telemarketer: Now ma'am I don't mean you any disrespect but you do have a young sounding voice and I have to ask.
Me: Okay, I'm not interested.
Telemarketer: You have to understand I didn't mean to disrespect you but I am have to make sure you're an adult.
Me: I wasn't offended, I'm just not interested.
Telemarketer: Oh, Why not?
Me: Uh, because I'm going to be moving.
Telemarketer:Oh, okay, thank you, bye.

Jeez did he really think the only reason I wouldn't order the New York Post from him was that he might have offended me? I really wasn't offended, at least he didn't ask if my "mommy is home" (which has happened to me before). What am I going to do with the New York Post? No, I don't want it.

News, News, News

Soooo, I called FAMU today just to find out a little bitty bit of info. and was told that they will be mailing out letters stating whether we have been accepted to move onto the interview process in two weeks. Woo Hoo! At least then I will know whether they liked my application enough to ask me to interview, or whether they hated me and aren't accepting me, in which case I can figure out what I am going to do for the next year of my life.

And on the apartment front I have found someone to sublease my room, so all I have to do is get the info from the leasing office and then I will be able to move home for the summer. Woo Hoo! I get the WHOLE summer off of school. I should probably find a job though. I'll have to work on that, but if anyone has any ideas I'm open to suggestions.

If you are sitting around wondering what it is like in Baghdad you should read Where is Raed?. He is back online after a two day absence, and has posted entries that he would have liked to post while the iraqi internet was down.
P.S. There apparently are many people who question his sincerity (as I do occasionally), however, Diane has done a good job of explaining her reasons for taking him at his word and has links to others who explain their belief in him. Check it out.

I am seriously dissapointed in the leadership of this country and I am not at all excited about the upcoming election and the lack of a reasonable opponent for the current president. And normally when this happens the normal reaction is something to the effect of, "well, why don't you just run for president then?" Well that would be a good idea, except that I don't think that many people would back me and oh yeah, I'm not old enough.

I am therefore taking applications for a reasonable candidate. Should I select you from the multitude of entries I am sure to recieve, you will recieve my full backing and support in the upcoming election. I am registered independent and I vote that way as well. I therefore do not require that you be a member of a specific party. I vote solely on the basis of your stand on the issues, and have never voted because of party affiliation in my life. I actually read several papers and listen to the news to see where the candidates stand before voting for them.

Applications should be sent via e-mail and should include a full resume. Upon reciept of your application, it will be thoroughly reviewed and you will be notified of your standing forthwith. Thank you.

I pilfered this from my mom's e-mail this morning, and while I don't completely disagree with all points, I do disagree with some of them. And since this is all about my thoughts and opinions I figured I'd take this opportunity to share.
After hearing that the state of Florida changed its opinion and let a Muslim woman have her picture on her driver's license with her face covered this is an editorial written by an American citizen, published in a Tampa newspaper. He did quite a job; didn't he? Read on, please! Okay, since I live in Tampa and all I probably did read this article, I know that I read some several about the issue, but I don't remember this one in particular.

IMMIGRANTS, NOT AMERICANS, MUST ADAPT. I am tired of this nation worrying about whether we are offending some individual or their culture. Since the terrorist attacks on Sept. 11, we have experienced a surge in patriotism by the majority of Americans. However, the dust from the attacks had barely settled when the "politically correct" crowd began complaining about the possibility that our patriotism was offending others. Okay, I guess I'm one the "politically correct crowd" because I do worry about offending others. Unlike some I realize that this country is made up of many different cultures, and I know that even though my culture believes certain things not all cultures believe the same thing, I am lucky to be a majority. I understand that what makes America different are the many different beliefs that, for the most part, live in relative harmony.

I am not against immigration, nor do I hold a grudge against anyone who is seeking a better life by coming to America. Our population is almost entirely made up of descendants of immigrants. However, there are a few things that those who have recently come to our country, and apparently some born here, need to understand. This idea of America being a multicultural community has served only to dilute our sovereignty and our national identity. As Americans, we have our own culture, our own society, our own language and our own lifestyle. This culture has been developed over centuries of struggles, trials, and victories by millions of men and women who have sought freedom. I believe that the american culture and society is based on the differences that are found among our people, and the fact that all of our cultures have meshed to form an ecclectic family of sorts.

We speak ENGLISH, not Spanish, Portuguese, Arabic, Chinese, Japanese, Russian, or any other language. Therefore, if you wish to become part of our society, learn the language! I do agree with this point. A firm grasp of the national language is important, and it should not be my job to decipher your meaning. I do however think that multilingualism is important and I don't discourage the learning of another language, or the speach of another language to others who also understand the language, as long as I can understand you when needed.

"In God We Trust" is our national motto. This is not some Christian, right wing, political slogan. We adopted this motto because Christian men and women, on Christian principles, founded this nation, and this is clearly documented. It is certainly appropriate to display it on the walls of our schools. If God offends you, then I suggest you consider another part of the world as your new home, because God is part of our culture. Yes, our nations founders were christian and they did choose "In God We Trust" as our national motto, however, they also had the foresight to see into the future and to know that one day our great country would be filled with many different nationalities and seeing this they choose to seperate church and state. Do not forget this. Seperation of Church and State, is a great principle and makes our country unique, it is a principle that I strongly believe. And thus it is not appropriate for the motto to be displayed on the walls of our schools. God does not offend me, I am Christian, and I can see this, be a little more open-minded, have a little more respect. Stop pushing your religion on others. Seperation of Church and State is also part of our culture.

If Stars and Stripes offend you, or you don't like Uncle Sam, then you should seriously consider a move to another part of this planet. We are happy with our culture and have no desire to change, and we really don't care how you did things where you came from. This is OUR COUNTRY, our land, and our lifestyle. Our First Amendment gives every! citizen the right to express his opinion and we will allow you every opportunity to do so. But once you are done complaining, whining, and griping about our flag, our pledge, our national motto, or our way of life, I highly encourage you take advantage of one other great American freedom, THE RIGHT TO LEAVE. I can't believe anyone even said this out loud. Here you are expressing your first ammendment right, and at the same time persecuting someone for expressing theirs. People do have a right to express their opinion, and they have a right to disagree with your opinion, but how dare you practically demand that they leave the country simply because their opinions are contrary to yours. Because you belong to the majority does not make you special.

AMEN

And Finally I was also upset by the fact that they did not have to take off their veils for identification. I think that there has to be a reasonable alternative that will still allow for reasonable identification. I understand the religous aspects of their culture and the reasons, but how about photo identification that can only be viewed by certain people, or what about using fingerprints? Sure it would be a little more time consuming but there is no reason that we should not be able to accomodate. Right now we need a little bit more tolerance than what most people are showing.

Well, it is official, I am graduating (well, unless I fail something). And my impending graduation has made me think about why it is that I have made it. So for quite a while I have been thinking about this, and then last night Nikky asked me about college in general. So now that I have some time I think I will address the issue.
First of all I don't think that college is really all that hard, not in the way that people think it will be hard. Some of the subjects are tough (Organic Chemistry was a bear), but you CAN get through it, there are study labs all over the place (at my school there are math tutor labs, and chemistry tutor labs, etc... that actually have teachers assistants, who are graduate students, around to help you), ask a friend to study with you... So my point is that the subjects aren't necessarily hard, now I'm not saying you don't actually have to study, you do have to go over the material and understand it. One BIG tip I have is ALWAYS go to class, it's a real life saver, I mean who wants to read a thousand page text book? Go to class, then you have already gone over the material once, with a professor who is knowledgeble, and you know what the professor thinks is important about the material. A lot of professors don't even teach out of the book, and as long as you were in class you will do fine (but if you weren't in class, and you read the book, then first of all you've studyed way too much material, and you've missed out on the extras the professor threw in).
When I was talking to Nikky she kept asking me if there was a lot of homework to do. And I kept saying no there isn't. I don't have any professors that require homework. There are projects, but that's not really homework, the main thing is studying, and we went through this several times. No there isn't homework, sometimes there is suggested work. But the majority of your outside of class work will be studying. And yes that can take some time.
Also, if your just in college because you don't have anywhere else to be or because your "supposed" to be there then you won't make it either. You need to be able to understand why this is important. If it isn't important to you then you won't ever be able to put in the right kind of effort. If you can't see the end result, or understand the purpose for going to college, then don't torture yourself, go get a job, and move on with your life. College is all about what you will get in the end, and if you don't see that you will be getting anything out of it then there is no reason for you to be there in the first place.
I think the most important factor in whether you can make it through college is whether or not you can deal with it all. I'm talking about work and class, and the fact that no one is going to be there to say, "hey have you done your homework yet?" "did you study for that test?" College life is different, you live on your own, you do your own laundry, wash your own dishes, and make your own food, you live away from your friends and for sometimes weeks you don't see or even talk to any of your friends from high school. It's a whole different world, things are different that you don't even think about being different. It's all about whether you can deal with the differences. Can you get everything done, the every day living functions, the studying, class, work? Can you deal with the schedule? Can you deal with the fact that you may have to be up until 2 am working on a paper and then get up a 6 to be somewhere on time (remember no one is going to make sure you get up and get there on time, and if you are late no one will except the excuse that you are just a kid). Can you do it? If you can then when you are done, you'll wonder what you were so worried about. If you can't then you will have to find another way to deal with your life, because like it or not after highschool you do have to deal with it yourself, even if you don't go to college.

Well, I have lots of different things to post on, and I thought I would have time this weekend, but I don't. Anyway, I do have a second right now (before I go to bed) to post this. I just made an old blog web-site, it has all my older entries, from when I used a different journal. I figured this would be a good idea. You know, in case someone actually ever does read this they will be able to grab a little bit of background info--it should make some things make a little more sense (if that sentence even made sense). Anyway the link is listed over in the links section under older blogs. Now I must get some sleep, otherwise my weekend will be completely worthless (I mean, what's a weekend if you can't even catch up on sleep?).

I mentioned the blog "Where is Raed?" earlier, and I just want to urge everyone to go and check it out. It's the blog of a guy who is living in baghdad right now, and I think it is important to see both sides of the story.

The following is simply mindless blather that should be ignored at all costs. Thank you, Management.

I'm still reading a lot of other people's blogs, and I find that they are very interesting. Most of the blogs with political messages are anti-war, but express a supportive sentiment toward our soldiers. It is good to know that so many people share my sentiments.

I've really enjoyed creating and personalizing this blog very much, but I find that it sometimes gets in the way of my studying. This is not a good thing. Already between senioritis and the war my concentration is wearing thin. And I would definitely say that college senioritis and high school senioritis are very different, namely that college senioritis is much more acute. I am finding it difficult to concentrate, and difficult to focus on studying. So far my only saving grace is that I ALWAYS go to class. In fact if I could give someone one piece of advice about college it would be to at least go to class. If you go to class then you have already gone over all of the class material, you know what the professor wants you to focus on, and you are familiar with the way that the professor states things which gives you a boost when answering questions on tests. Always go to class. It was definitely my saving grace this week. I had two tests and a big paper due, and well as needing to continue work on my thesis. And considering my nearly complete lack of studying I am fairly certain that I did well on all of those tasks, with the exception of work on my thesis (I didn't get much done at all). Hopefully next will be far more productive.

So, I decided I would let people know that I was linking to them, I got back all postive responces, but I'm not sure if I will continue to inform people of the linkage. For example, I am adding a link to "Where is Raed", and I'm not going to send him an e-mail because I'm sure he recieves more than enough anyway. It's a very good, and informative blog, check it out if you have time. I also talked to Mileah yesterday, she sent me an IM asking for me URL, and I didn't think about it then ('cause I was entering data, and working between two computers, so I had far to much on my mine) but I wonder how she sent me that IM (the one with the cool message) if she wasn't already at my site? I've decided that I'm probably an obsessive knowledge seeker, if I want to know something then I will find out, even if everything else in the world suffers, I just can't stop looking. I also talked to one of the writers for Jacked Thoughts, very nice person, who informed me that he doesn't normally tell people he is linking to their blogs, I'm glad, because I think it's kinda wierd sometimes, but the college student in me is demanding that I do it anyway. I don't know, it seems kinda like plagerism if I don't.
Okay, okay, I know this is probably a really odd, rambling post, but I'm operating on about 5 hours sleep, and I've been up since 6:15, so I'm tired. I don't know how people can survive on so little sleep, I've been known to think that 10 hours wasn't enough. I think what is making it worse is that I haven't had a good nights sleep at all this week, I don't think that there was even one day where I got to bed before 12:00, probably not even 1:00. But I'm home now, so I think I'm going to sleep, or at least rest.

Came home in time to watch Friends (which I don't usually get to do), and of course it's a rerun. And in the commercial break I see like 30 seconds of news (you know like a commercial for the 11:00 news). And this is what I see. They have news of secret surrender talks between US officials and some iraqi people. That's it, that's all they said--I mean, THis is HUGE news, they can't give us anymore than that--I think that kind of news calls for breaking into the friends rerun. But I guess if they told us all about it now, they wouldn't have anything for later, and they have to have something to make us watch later.
And then THERE IS ANOTHER TERRORIST IN SOUTH FLORIDA---Geez! I'm starting to think I need to move to another state--it's disgraceful to live here.
Well, that's it for now, I have a 7-8 page paper on a chemistry reaction that didn't work. WHich is to be expected of a reaction that can not have any water in it--I mean Hello, we live in Florida, It is humid.

So, I added some links to other people's blogs, and no, I don't know them, do you think I should send them an e-mail to let them know that I linked to them? Would that be considered polite? Or should I just not tell them? I'm new to this so I don't know the customs. I would do as the Romans do, but I don't see any around. I just don't know what to do!

Today
Went to work, went to class, went to work, went to class, went to taco bell, then drove towards home. But guess what, the police were blocking 50th, there wasn't even an officer directing people to turn around, it was just a police car in the road and a bunch of flashing lights. So I had to turn around and drive through campus, which made my trip more than twice as long, luckily though all the police were on 50th so none of them could see me speeding through campus, dodging the stupid people who think it is okay to cross the road when I have a green light and there is a whole line of cars trying to get by.
Job
Boy, oh boy, I can not wait until I graduate and don't have to work there anymore. I can't wait until I have a job where I do something that actually needs to be done. I feel like I spend most of my time doing things that don't really need to be done, but will keep me busy so I should do them, or getting yelled at for not doing things that don't need to be done, or for not doing things that I didn't know needed to be done. I will miss the money though, I mean I may not work very much, but I make damn good money for a regular college student's job.
Oh, I'm also not going to miss getting yelled at by teachers who filled out their registration wrong and then get mad at me because of it, as if I made the mistake. (ex. The week before last a man came in and told me that he forgot to fill in which test he wanted to take (we offer like 50), and he wanted to fix it. I told him that we couldn't do anything for him and that he would have to register again (late registration--and he would have to pay the fee) and he yelled at me! "What do I got to pay extra for? I just left out two little numbers." And he just kept yelling about everything. I told him I couldn't give him advice on filling out the registration, and he got mad because I wouldn't help him(because if I tell him wrong then I can be held accountable, and they don't give us any information about the exams anyway). I told him that all the information was in the bulletin and even told him the pages, but he refused to read the directions! I felt like saying, "excuse me I have to go make an appointment to have a hysterectomy so that I won't ever have children that have to deal with YOU!") Nope, definitely won't miss that.
Praying
While I was at the drive through at Taco Bell they were talking about our impending war, and how we are already bombing strategic locations in iraq. And I just sat there and prayed for those military men and women over there, who are right now hunkering down somewhere, waiting for orders, and thinking about the lives they had to leave behind, their spouses and their children and their family, and friends. I pray that this war is short, with no loss of life. While I was there in the drive through I looked over at Chik-fil-A, and they had "God bless America" on their sign. And I remembered that after 9/11, I had said that businesses shouldn't use signs with religous statements because that would only succeed in alienating those who do not believe in my God, and I didn't want to do that, I thought we should be one. But tonight I found myself glad that that sign was up, right now I think we could use blessings from anyone and everyone, the more people who are for us the better, I don't care if you pray to God, or Allah, or Budda, or not at all, right now we could use everyone's good will.
And with all that said, I'm still against war.

Went to the store last night, got a publix sub. It was between that and Taco Bell--publix won (slightly healthier). Had half last night and half for lunch today. It was good--but way to much pepper.

You know, I sometimes wonder what happened to people that I used to know. I wish there was some way I could find out without too much trouble, and without them really knowing. 'Cause I'm sure they probably aren't wondering where I am, they probably wouldn't even remember me now. There was this girl in my 5th grade class (I think), and I can't even remember her name, but she was like my best friend for a while. And there was Sara in the 8th grade, who moved to Washington, I remember running the mile with her (you know when I look back at middle school PE, the only thing I can remember doing is running the mile, over and over, and over). And then there are people from Day Care, who I haven't seen in years and probably wouldn't even recognize. You know the first day of this semester I think I saw a girl I used to go to day care with, she sat right next to me in a computer lab, and I even talked to her for a second, but I never asked her about it. And then there are people who I really want to know about like the kids that Debbie used to watch. Like Scott, and Nicky. I remember Scott proposing to me over and over, I should have said yes, I'll probably never get asked again. And of course Torri. I don't know how I drifted so far away from Torri, she lived right across the street, but we did drift apart, and then she moved to Illinois. Torri and I were so close for so long, and then we just moved apart. That's probably a sign that even if I do some day get to get married that it won't last. And of course I always wonder about people from high school, people from band. And then I also wonder about people that I knew just a year ago, not well, but I knew them, and then they seemed to have fell off the face of the earth, I don't even see them around, and on this campus I get around, it seems like I run from one side to the other constantly.
There are so many people that I would like to catch up with, I just wish that I still knew them.

I thought this article was very well put: asclepias.blogspot.com

So it looks like war. I am not happy about going to war, I do not want to go to war. Mainly I don't want to go to war because I don't see the point. What did Saddam do again? I mean it seems like we were all so gung ho about the war on terror, and when we couldn't find osama, Bush said, "not to worry I know where we can find a fight." So anyway--Saddam has NUCLEAR--please don't ever say Nucular anywhere near me--weapons, and oh, yeah he's a tyrant. Well news flash y'all, the same thing is going on in Korea, in fact, it's probably an even worse situation and we're ignoring that. The same things are also happening in Turkey, Saudi Arabia, and a few other countries, who just happen to be our allies in this war on terror. Oh, and I would like to remind you of the taliban regime, which we only went after AFTER we got bombed, we didn't care about their human rights violations, and the poor living situations for women (and it's not like we didn't know, there was even a 7th heaven episode about it--we knew we just didn't care). Ask yourself--why do we suddenly care so much about this ONE other country's tyrants?

I don't want to go to war. I don't like what it does to people. I don't like the thought that if one of my friends is killed in the line of duty no one will remember them. Think about it. Already we have lost people to this war, do you remember them? Do you even remember how it was that they lost their lives? Probably not. But most of all I don't like that because I am anti-war I am suddenly unAmerican, there are people who think I should be tried to treason and hung. I say you are unAmerican, because your ready to condemn me simply because I am expressing my 1st amendment right. When people marched on Washington for animal rights, that was fine (that's an American thing to do, you can't protest everywhere you know), but when people march on Washington to protest the war---oh, well then you are unAmerican and you need to get out of this country.

I say you are UnAmerican because America is supposed to be a nation for the people, by the people, from the people. I haven't talked to many people at all that want to go to war--how american can it be to force a majority of the country to go to war, when they don't want to go to war. I say Bush is the most UnAmerican of all, because HE decided HE wanted to go to war, he doesn't care what the people want. It is his job to represent the people of this great country and right now the only people he is representing are climbing his family tree (oh, and a few other people who don't mind being led around by the nose, as long as the person leading them has somehow finagled the title of president out of the American people).

And FYI, I don't support the war, but I will always support our troops, who regardless of whether they support the war or not are just doing their jobs.

nucular--rolls eyes. Dern, Dern, Dern! I've got stuff to say and blogger decides to stop workin', must be all the other people posting about bushy's threats. Anyway, I'm moving this page--cause just registered a page with a better addy, and I'll use this one for my old posts from other sites, so that I don't have to keep repeating myself. Well actually maybe I should get some other opinions, not that I think anyone else reads this, but what do you think? Do you like ~mycrazythoughts~.blogspot.com or Malissa.blogspot.com? I just figured Malissa would be easier to remember.

Grr...hope it works this time.

So far no luck in posting but don't think I'm giving up that easily.
Anyway, I was just washing clothes --all the way on the other side of my apartment and the phone rang--wrong number--but as I'm running to get the phone, I breathed wrong and I choked on my own spit--I mean can you imagine? There should be an advisory on it. It's like running with scissors. Okay--it's nothing like running with scissors, but it is dangerous. Leave it to me to nearly kill myself by doing absolutely nothing at all.

Hi all. Well, still not feeling too political, though I'm sure that tonight after 8, I'm going to feel preeeetty political, but we'll see what "W" has to say.
Oh, and personal message to Saddam--get out while the getting is good--we can't hold him back anymore!
Ay, Ay, Ay! I can't believe spring break is over--I sooooo do not want to be back! School-Blah!
Still haven't heard from FAMU--Geeeez! how long can they make me wait? It seems like forever, and ever, and ever...
Haven't heard from Tab in a while, but I guess she has a lot on her mind, I hope everything turns out well, I'm sure it will, at least she should find out today and not have to wait any longer.

You know I really hate writing e-mails, I never know how to say something without sounding completely stupid, I wonder if anyone else feels this way. I seem to always have a problem knowing what to say. I think it is all this school--they've put some much junk in my head that I lost all my social skills--yeah, that's it--really.
Well I have to go now--Math--whoppee! But at least we should get our exam scores--I'm pretty sure I did absolutely fabulous--we'll see in a little while.

See, I told you.
Of course, the scan quality is not great, as usual, but the actual picture is better.

OMG--it works! Yippee!

Okay--I'm just checking to see if I can actually do this--if it works--yea!, if it doesn't then I'll try it again tomorrow. And just in case you are wondering, no this is not a picture of Nikky in her prom dress. Like I said, it's just a test (btw, if it works this is a picture taken at Montauk State Park in Missouri, by me).

I've become a complete internet voyeur since opening this journal--I've read sooooo many other peoples journals, veeeeery interesting. Anyway--some are really good, some are not so good, most people are boring(like me), and some are simply scary. Anyway, I've also become a theif, I've stolen several peoples ideas on improving this page. If I see something I like on their page I figure out how they did it and I add it to mine. Anyway, I'm learning a lot about html, and what coding can do for you. Also very interesting.

On a different note, tonight is Nikky's prom, she looked very pretty--as she normally is. It's so wierd how we're completely opposite of each other. Anyway, she called after she left to tell mom she had hit and killed a dog, which was very traumatic for her, but it also cracked the bumper of her beloved car. So much for the perfect prom night, but hopefully she will be able to forget about that for the night and have fun. If I can figure out how to add pictures to this I will maybe add one of her in her dress, she really did look good.

I went to the eye doctor today, I think she said my eyes are the same. I checked out color contacts, I wanted green, but none of the green ones showed any real difference from my regular eye color, so then I tried all kinds of other colors. I kind of liked the gray but not really enough to buy them, the blue was pretty cool 'cause it matched my shirt. But I'm not really sure if I want blue eyes. So anyway they are ordering me a trial pair of another brand that they didn't have in the office--in green--and if I like those I will order them, if not I'm going to consider blue--I mean if I have to wear contacts anyway, why not be able to change every once in a while?

I really like this blog thing because you can just use the templates they give you or you can take one of the templates and customize it--which I am trying to do right now--but it is a little hard considering I don't know html. But anyway the cool part is you don't have to know it--but it you do then all the better. I've already added in a couple of neat-o things--well you probably won't even notice, but it makes me happy.

So at the eye doctor we got to talking about the fact that I am graduating and that I applied to pharmacy school--just one school--and whenever people hear that I only applied to one school they look at me like why wouldn't you apply to more schools just in case? But for the most part it is to difficult and takes to long to explain that I just recently had to review my life and decide what I really wanted to do and why I wanted to do it. I always wanted to be a doctor, but why, and what kind of doctor? Was I just in it for the title and the money? Was I just doing it because that was what people expected? And most importantly is it worth what I would have to give up in time, money, and sanity? The decision wasn't something that came easy at all, and I still wonder if it's the right one. I think that it is. But the point is when I decided I didn't have all that much time and there are only three schools here with a pharm program, ones private, one requires the PCAT and more classes than I had time to take, and the other one was perfect--not to mention came with rave reviews. So I applied to one school, if I had been more prepared then I would have applied two years ago, but I wasn't so here I am--and yes I only applied to one school. And right now I'm just assuming I'll get in--if I don't--I'll probably cry, there is no reason I shouldn't get in. And after I cry, I'll have to figure out what I'm gonna do next. And no I don't like it--I don't like not knowing what will happen, I hate not being able to plan. I'm a very planny person, it makes me nervous to change things in the middle, I like to have exact time for meetings, so this is very difficult on me. And to top it all off this is the worst semester I've ever had, I'm constantly writing papers, or studying, and if 'm not studying or writing a paper then I'm sitting around thinking about the paper that I should be writing but don't want to write.

Well this post wasn't noteworthy at all, but I just couldn't wait to get started, I'm working on getting a comment box, but I don't know if anyone would use it--what do you think--would you make comments in it?

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