My Crazy Thoughts
my thoughts on various topics.

Yesterday I called Jenn just after noon, we talked for a while and then someone they didn't know arrived at their house so she said she'd call me back later. They were going to go look at a house for Rodney and Marissa and then were going out to dinner later that night, so she'd call me after. I didn't really think she would and was sad that she didn't because I knew I wouldn't get to see her after all. But this morning she called and woke me up, which surprised me, to tell me that they were on their way to the airport. And she called again when she got home. She is very sick with a cold, but mentally I think she sounded much better than she had the last couple times I had talked to her. So that was a relief to know that she is doing better. I think a big part of it is that they are back home and there are other things to think about there. They have to get ready for work and they have normal life things to do again. She asked if I had read the articles in the newspaper and mentioned that there were a couple articles she would have liked to have. My mom had to foresight to save all the articles in the newspapers we get, so we have copies of everything. So I will send them to her. I always figured I would eventually but I had no idea when would be a good time, so I'm glad she asked, because now I don't have to decide. That's all for now.

posted by Malissa at 12:17 AM | 4 comments |

So...I told Tab that I'd let her know if I talked to Jenn and I did talk to Jenn, and then I left and forgot until now. So I guess I'll post it and hope that she reads this. I talked to Jenn. She sounded okay, but sad. I knew that the service in Arlington would be hard on her. On all of them. She said that she is waiting for a sign from him, a sign telling her that he's happy. But she also said it's causing her to rethink a lot of things, religous stuff, like whether there is a heaven. I think that the one thing you can always garauntee after the death of a loved one are questions about God and whatever comes next. I have my own thoughts on the issue, and I'll probably share them with her, but I think it's something that you have to come to on your own. So I didn't say anything on the phone. She also said that she had agreed to host a baby shower for a friend of hers, she needs to start planning it soon if that's what she's going to do, but I think she is rethinking whether she wants to. I'm sure that given the circumstances everyone would understand if she didn't, and someone would fill in, and I thought about saying that. But I think it might be good for her to do it, it will give her something to focus on, she can start celebrating life again instead of mourning loss. But...maybe it is too soon for that. I just don't know.

I tried to distract her with some silly gossip. Basically everyone I know here except Jenn has now broken up with their boyfriends. I'm happy being single, but they aren't so much...so it should be interesting. Oh, and Lori bought a house. I don't know how it went, I think we ended up back around to stuff going on there. And then some news people showed up and I guess they weren't expecting it so she wanted to go see what was going on. She said she'd call back, but she didn't. I didn't think she would really though. And after that I went to see Lori's new house.

She said that She and Charlie are flying out Saturday. The plane leaves about noon. Marissa and Noella are living here, they bought property next to the Flanagan's to build a house eventually. But Rodney leaves again on Monday. All along I've had a hard time imagining what they are really going through, but I think in this case Marissa has a pretty hard job. On Monday she has to let her husband be shipped back to the same place that, just two weeks ago, took the life of her brother.

Right now that's about all I can remember.

I hope she finds her sign soon. I hope they all do. And I think that Dennis will find a way to send one to them.

posted by Malissa at 11:45 PM | 1 comments |